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I was having a great (albeit long) day until I got to the gym and Pete pointed out that tonight was our last session.

I know none of you care to hear, well, anything, about my life, but:

I gave the CD to Pete.
He was very happy to get it.
He told me one of his friends is a scalper and would find out if he could find a ticket to the show for me. (I told him about how Melissa didn't tell me about the Jamiroquai gig coming up and how I was upset.)
Theeen he was making hang out plans with one of the new female personal trainers while I was literally hanging from one of the stupid ab machines and it made me jealous.

See, I'm a jealous person...not while in the relationship, but while hoping for one.

But, Jake, you're right! If I keep thinking I can't have him then eventually I'll believe it and maybe more hurt than if he outright rejects me.

Anyways, dinnertime.

[8:41 PM eDiT] I recounted the story of me giving Pete the CD to Melissa.
(Melissa) So, is the CD good?
(Jess) Yeah, it's really good. I, uh, have an extra copy of it if you want it. I didn't like my handwriting on the first one so I made a second one.
(Jess starts giggling nervously)
(Melissa is laughing) I have nothing to say to that...
(Jess changes the giggles to fake sobs) Ugh, I'm so, so pathetic....I suck...**retreats to her room**

Okay, which one of you guys paid off my astrologer to give me this today:

Daily Extended
September 27, 2005

Take a chance on love. Speculation in the romantic realm can work out with surprisingly good results, especially since the stars currently favor bold moves and big risks. Holding back will just hinder your attempt, so whatever you're going after, go after it all the way. You're beyond magnetic right now -- you're practically your own magnetic field, so you're guaranteed that the object of your desire will respond in just the way you'd like.




I see Pete today and am giving him the CD I made. Augh, I just *had* to read that. I'ts going to haunt me all day.

you gotta understand that I won't hold your hand, but if it helps you mend then I won't stop it...go on and save yourself, and take it out on me, go on and save yourself and take it out on me, go on and save yourself, and take it out on me, go on and save yourself and take it out on me, yeah...

Good mood today!

Though, working always seems to perk up my mood. Funny, huh? I know most people are like "omg I hate work bleh" which is understandable. I have my own days when I don't want to go in to work either. It's more the social interaction that cranks up my mood more than anything.

That and I talked to Pete today? Haha I'm so pathetic. He finally called to make an appointment for tomorrow, and he laughed on the phone...God, I'm so...crushing on him so badly...

Meh, anyways. Bullshit out.

she said it would feel this good, and it does...feels just like it should, ya...feels just like it should...

Cleaned the whole apartment
Did all my laundry
Had some lunch
Still don't have work schedule
Can't leave house until Pete calls --> will rectify that by giving him cell phone number once he does call
Need to go to drug store
Want espresso
Pathetically bored and lonely
Knows none of y'all care/are reading this :p hahahaha

...sorry Elton.

Listening to "In A Coma", bit the bullet and bought the 3 disc set. It was only $30 so that averages out for $10 a CD, not so bad.

But man, "Symbolistic White Walls," remember that song? Matthew Good sounds NOTHING like he does in his later works...

And I *so* just made a copy of "Dynamite" to give to Pete when I see him on Tuesday.

...

That's right.

Anyways, I'm bored. I want to go to Second Cup and loiter but maybe I'll just put on jammies and go to bed early. :p It'd be nice if I had my work schedule for the week.

I am not fishing for presents, but I know that every year I'm grilled by people (mainly family members) about what I want for my birthday.

First of all, I do not want anything. But some of you are bent on sending me something anyways, so here is a place to start:

- Hot Hot Heat album "Elevator"
- The Corpse Bride OST
- a pedicure
- navel jewelery

As you can tell, I did just purchase the new Jamiroquai album....what the hell made me wait so long for it?! Of course it just compounds the sadness of not going to see him :(

The house is one big fucking mess. It's supposed to rain tomorrow so I'll clean it then, since I know no one else will do it. It'll make up for the fact that I did not indeed go to aerobics this morning.

Again, as I said, I went to see Corpse Bride with Rebecca last night and the whole thing was a blast. I hadn't seen her siiiiiiiince...April? So not only was the movie fantastic, the company was great as well. When we were planning it I said "ooooooo maybe we'll get to see a Harry Potter trailer!"

AND WE DID AND IT WAS SOOOOOO AWESOME. I squealed like a little girl and when it was over I said "okay, we can go home now, that was worth $10."

Krissy, didn't you say that the director had only done pilates vids or something? The movie mag I picked up said he'd done Mona Lisa Smile. Anyways, after that, I'm no longer worried.

Planning on hitting up the mall again today and spending money. You see, last week when I went was more to socialize with Maria since I didn't end up buying anything.

That, and there's nowhere to get an espresso at Eastgate except at the Fortino's, where I ended up having dinner last night too.

Anyways, if you need me, everyone's favourite 6' blonde is going to be mostly out today.

and you're done lying for the living, strange days are coming....you're gone, you're gone, either dead or dying, either dead or trying to go....

My review of the Corpse Bride:

That was totally fucked up, and I loved it completely.

Vague is good.

- worked today, feeling tired
- figured out a ballpark age for Pete; he's actually kind of much older than I expected
- not deterred from persuing Pete due to this fact, haha, I'm still as pathetic as ever
- hated the thought of sitting around when I got home from work, went across town to the mall to have a bowl of soup and then come right back
- going to see Corpse Bride with Rebecca, woo hoo!

I'm frantic, so load me up! This seems so practiced, just take me and take me and take me all the way out, whatever puts me all the way out, whatever puts me all the way out, whatever puts me all the way out....!

Though I guess getting up at 7 AM on a day when you don't have to be at work until 1 just over elongates the morning.

I practiced guitar a bit, but man, the book is taking a bit longer to go through the second half. Since it taught me chords it doesn't provide more than two 'tunes' to learn my new notes. What I mean is, when I was first learning new notes there'd be about half a dozen little ditties to practice them with, but now, I just learned a new string and two more new notes and all I get is two little pieces to go with. Doesn't make for much variety. And we all know I'm a kid deep down, I need to be entertained. :p

I missed you, though, A string.

I'm looking at my cell phone and feeling mad at it, can you believe that? It's not the phone's fault some asshole can't dial a phone properly. Or some other asshole gave this guy her 'number' when it turned out to be mine.

The radio is playing sweet tunes right now, first the new Matthew Good, now Audioslave....mmmmmm....maybe there is hope for FM radio. Maybe.

Grocery shopping, then Pete tomorrow. I have a whole package of tofu I haven't opened since I bought it last week...I guess I'm not going through food as quickly as I had before? Nah, I just put some other protein on my salad instead.

I was woken up by my cell phone going off at 2 AM and scaring the shit out of me. I checked the call ID and it said "unkown," so I left it. (All my friends/relatives are stored in my phone memory so when one of them calls, their name and number will come right up.) I left it, and it rang AGAIN, same 'unknown' so I turned the phone right off. I woke up at 6 and turned it on again....just to have it ring twice AGAIN half an hour later. Well, fuck, I was mad, but I got out of bed and had some breakfast.

This is my second cup of tea. Anyways.

So an hour ago, it rang three times in a row and I'm so mad I answer it each time, and some guy's broken connection is on the other end and he's going "hello? hello?" and I'm going "hello? Who is this? Hello?" Finally on the third fucking call he says "may. I. speak. to. Stacey?" Shit. I'm practically yelling. "YOU HAVE WRONG NUMBER."

Some assholes.

Wednesday, it is your job to get better from here.

The moon is in the Libra house? Sister Zola strikes again?

( WTF )

(you paint your body beautiful,
all the colours of the sky...
blinded by bubblegum,
I never asked you why...)

if this is heaven we'll be all right,
if we're in hell it's way past midnight
it's a mistake now, andromeda
it's much too late now, andromeda
can't see through this cloud of euphoria
it's a mistake now, andromeda
don't choke on the stardust, baby

trouble with the paperboy
you could say I've lost my taste
tattooed and genuine,
no, the real thing's not a waste

if this is heaven we'll be all right,
if we're in hell it's way past midnight
it's a mistake now, andromeda
it's much too late now, andromeda
can't see through this cloud of euphoria
it's a mistake now, andromeda
don't choke on the stardust baby

( guitar interlude, silly girlish babble )

it's a mistake, now, andromeda
can't see past this cloud of euphoria
it's a mistake now andromeda
go choke on the stardust, baby

stardust, baby
stardust, yeah
stardust, baby
choke on the stardust, yeah!

Hello, I am your host, Jess, also known as:

Foxine, Party Paparazzi Princess. DIG IT!
( 49 pictures, with commentary! )

What I wouldn't do, right now, for plate-sized pancakes with maple syrup.

Or a giant brownie with chocolate chip cookie pieces in it.

I was stupid and forgot to buy more breakfree eggs at the grocery store, and I sort of want a hot breakfast....oh well. Maybe I'll treat myself to lunch at the mall.

i miss pete

Pete called while I was still at work tonight and cancelled for tomorrow. He's not going in to work, so I figure he must be sick. :(

And here I was all ready to be charming!cute!happy!sweet!Jess. Notice how stupid! or retarded! is not used. Because I'm not gonna do that anymore.

Ooooooh still sore...work made me sore, I felt okay when I left the house.

Bedtime soon.

to be yourself is all that you can do....to be yourself is all that you can do...

Haha how ironic me speaking about not being stupid! or retarded! when that's part of myself XD

Do you see how early mornings fuck you up? It's 5 AM and I'm wide awake.

Must find something to lull me online.

Perhaps I will play my "I Dream of Sleeping" mix.